wrong start

business assignment make me can't breath...
from MIS till statistic then accounting..everything make me so tension
why i like choose the wrong road?
it is so suffer here
hostel got less people can help me in study
as seniors says
in university..
everything have to depend on yourself
no matter any challenge or difficulties
you must face it and solve it, can't avoid from it..
i start to feel the um effect..
haha..the top university in Malaysia
actually this is really a very good platform for us to grow
we start to know what is the real life that is more likely to the outer surrounding..
but i do like it very much
i told myself
in um i do not want to be the good one
but my aim is to be the best one
joining activity is one my vision
for the society outside
i aim for business club and Aiesec association
which i think this two club is good for my future...
they just prepare the route for me to have real practical on what is happening outside..
but i will consider how much commitment i can give to these two clubs
these two clubs is very busy
it need time management very well
that's why i must plan..
some more now change room already..i have to share tABLE..
it is impossible to put laptop and assignment together
it's definitely not enough space for me
haha
but this should be a good sign
at least i can concentrate on what i do..
like before when i doing homework
i feel like wish to watch movie
then msn, friendster and facebook
now?
haha...please choose one ...anyway
um challenge is all coming to me..
later when i start ptum activity
i wonder
can i sleep?
i will miss my bed very much...
see you!!!

business i week

everything is moving so fast
the business i week is over
ha ha
just come back
it's really tired
but we do enjoy a lot
learn a lot
ranging from socialise, communicate, then planning then leading
all these can be learned from this activity
as i know
the theme for this business week
is journey
this is a very symbolic word
it can be long or short journey
but how you want to spend your journey
it's depends on you...
like today we heard about
three seniors or buddy
one management one marketting then one finance
according to them
that is their specialization
but i got many question until blank
but actually sincerely i enjoy
marketing subject more now
but all these is just temporarily
because i know after one year of foundation
EVERYTHING MAY GO DIFFERENT
our business course have an profession
but definitely
it's a very hard job
because it's hard to score for those subjects
all related to finance...
to be a certified financial planner
you have to take the three necessary paper plus three years activity
then got one company
don't know what marketing company
the worker say she can earn 20000 per month
but i really lacks confident on them
then senior come tell us to write wrong info
so that they can't find us..
according to the buddy
this company if can
don't simply have any agreement with them..
wow...just because of sponsorship we have to face situation like that
but i hope everyhting gonna be fine...

how mars be attach to venus?

in this world,
i just heard about one story about couple
they are hawa and adam
believe or not..i have tothank them..
they create us...
but it seems like they didn't left any theory for us to continue their story
everyday couple have different story in their life
some may quarrel, sime may happily go for shopping
some may face money problem, distace problem..
but they also try their best to solve the problem..
maybe we can think in other aspect
in this universe
everyday every minute
they couple break
they are couple divorce
no wonder now people always choose not to marry
because they have lost the confidence
the believe in ancient time
mybe a pair of couple can tell us how sweet they are
but what have they contribute to the relationship
we wouldn't know and we will no understand forever
there are plenty method to keep a realtionship
but which one do i know"?
a very meaningful day
i can cry in smile...
i start to appreciate myself..
now in this net world
there is nothing i can't tell...
sometime i do ask myself?
what do you phobia?
no? or you don't dare to ADMIT?
actually if discover deeply,
there is everything to scare..
because our heart is not strong
heart is individUAL..IT'S NOT CONTROLED BY brain...
we do use our brain rapidly but we have to clear that
one day if heart become blur..it is very dangerous...
just like the explosion of volcano...
once explode, it's difficult to contiue using it again...
we are not always active..but we got a limit
this limit may spoil everything
but it wouldn't break the bond..

too many comes...

um life is now in progress...
everyday i feel like no direction
go class...
like today
early morning
the sky is giving us a down pour
well...
this should be normal
but just it make us moody
i also don't know what to do..
just take the bus then go down from bus
everyday same thing
repeatedly
i start thinking is it car more convenient?
but i know i wouldn't be able to handle my car at kl..
lastly i have join an activity called ptum
pesta tanglung university malaya..
this is a very grand activity
and i go audition for actor
haha
it's really funny
i remember well that the judges
say i am always in joke and humour line
well..it's still depends on personal opinion..
something certain people will feel that i am annoying
even irritating..laugh out loud...
but seems like everything is keep on going
like lecture
the MIS course told us that the poweRpoint note can't be photostat
but we can take photo on the slide
welL...
since it can be take as photo
i wonder why it can't be photostat
we copy also take the loyalty of the notes already
anyway...
this is all what we call
university rules and regulation..
one day
if somebody break the rules..
maybe we should ask the people who set the law...
what is your feelings?

mom...

曾在廣播裡听到 ,當孩子頂嘴甚至步入叛逆期時的因應之道
做媽媽的總是嘮叨 ,有一次已經高中的兒子不耐煩的頂撞了母親 , 母親氣得半死。
做父親的便約兒子一起出門散步。兩人走了好久 , 父親一路上不發一語 , 兒子納悶。 一直到要進家門口時 , 父親拍拍兒子的肩膀, 以男人對男人的語氣說 :
『等一下進去時 , 給我女人一點面子 !』
兒子驚讶於老爸用哥兒們的語氣對他說話 ,並因男人跟男人之間的義氣 , 從此對母親畢恭畢敬的。
所以 , 有的時候 , 父親這個角色還是頗重要的 !
當我的小孩頂撞我時，我想告訴他，下列的事任選一樣，做到後，才有頂撞的權利：
1. 連續3 個月每吃完一餐就須催吐 (孕吐)
2. 乳頭被別人吸到破皮達一個月 (餵奶)
3. 肚子塞一顆籃球達 10 個月 ( 懷孕)
4. 接受皮鞭抽打達 48 小時 (生小孩)
5. 10 個月不能喝冰水、咖啡、茶
6. 5個月睡覺不能翻身
7. 10 個月不能出遊遠行，不能跑跳
8. 10個月不能生病，要不，生病不能吃藥
9. 至育嬰室把屎把尿一個月
10. 晚上睡覺每二個小時起床一次，清醒30 分鐘達一個月
寫完上述
10 項，我覺得當娘的真不是人幹的。
想起一個高中同學他說：有一次頂撞母親，父親把他從椅子上踹下來，斥責他:
你媽是我捧在手心的寶，我呵護她，照顧她，對她輕聲細語，你憑什麼對他大小聲!!!
我的同學再也不敢頂撞母親了。
my god..this is so touch...

um life

the first time i get um
it is a very happy news
my life i got confident will be very happy
very excited...very enjoyable...
first week
i step into college kinabalu
this should be a good start
but in fact, is it?
i actually satisfied with the room
i got a good roommate
his name is amir
i am so glad to know him
then coming is another roommate
which i never expect to be same room with him
he is david
one of the respected senior last time secondary
i feel that i am suffering
who am i now?
i lost myself
i go no direction
everything is so blur here...
is it because i homesick?
or is because my personal behaviour problem?
i realise i was being repelled
i know nobody here
and i know the way i speak and make friends maybe is wrong
anyone can tell me
where is the ME last time
my strong part is socialise
why i lost all here
how can?
i can't accept
now i hate myself
keep on thinking negatively
that day i alone back hostel
i feel like this world is neglecting me
why everybody also wit friends
but i am alone
why?
it is unfair...
i hate this feeling...
sucks feeling'
i got think to buy cigarette from my friend
i think that can hep me calm down
i am so tension
i scare i will crazy
everything going so Moody...
the sky today is cloudy
i hate such situation
again i am alone
i hate this feeling
god...is it the challenge you give me?
but i start to be can't stand...
i know i am st
i feel i am suff