heaven or devil?

jpa...
a very common name among all students
a very competitive thing among all straight A's students
now this problem fall on my girlfriend
she tell me
she didn't get jpa scholarship after appeal
should i sad?
should i happy?
well
i not so clear
because i got plenty feeling now
i happy because she got high chance to be same university with me
i happy because she still in Malaysia
i happy because she is studying matriculation which i think is a very good choice
i unhappy
because my thinking is selfish
i unhappy because i know she and her family also unhappy
they still think that get good result should get jpa
instead i have the same thinking last time
but now
my happy more than my unhappy
i understand her feeling
suppose to get
but finally empty
she get hurt much recently
first back from Japan
then can't get matrix
study form six
get physic stream(luckily now OK)
finally jpa lost
everything like wave non stop pushing towards her
i should help her
i just hope she can study matrix well
because with this
she sure can go for local university
although can't get oversea
i hope she will appreciate..
sincerely
dear..sorry for my selfish