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Tuesday, July 7, 2009

um life

the first time i get um
it is a very happy news
my life i got confident will be very happy
very excited...very enjoyable...
first week
i step into college kinabalu
this should be a good start
but in fact, is it?
i actually satisfied with the room
i got a good roommate
his name is amir
i am so glad to know him
then coming is another roommate
which i never expect to be same room with him
he is david
one of the respected senior last time secondary
i feel that i am suffering
who am i now?
i lost myself
i go no direction
everything is so blur here...
is it because i homesick?
or is because my personal behaviour problem?
i realise i was being repelled
i know nobody here
and i know the way i speak and make friends maybe is wrong
anyone can tell me
where is the ME last time
my strong part is socialise
why i lost all here
how can?
i can't accept
now i hate myself
keep on thinking negatively
that day i alone back hostel
i feel like this world is neglecting me
why everybody also wit friends
but i am alone
why?
it is unfair...
i hate this feeling...
sucks feeling'
i got think to buy cigarette from my friend
i think that can hep me calm down
i am so tension
i scare i will crazy
everything going so Moody...
the sky today is cloudy
i hate such situation
again i am alone
i hate this feeling
god...is it the challenge you give me?
but i start to be can't stand...
i know i am st
i feel i am suff

6 comments:

Peggie said...

dear...r u feeling ok ady now?
University life is like this...dont u know that? evryone busy there..hard to know new frens in university.

dear...pls dun ever try smoke cigaratte no matter how worse the situition will be .that is a test frm God.u may ask the old ppl..they will say problems v r facing actually is a good thing let us bcum more mature n gain experience frm it..frankly,i cant imagine if u smoke...bad image for me...
i know u not feeling good.but evrything wil be alright at last...trust me..
im one of the example...starting evrything i also alone do de...even go back hostel also alone bcoz my classmate all not same block with me.the frens same block with me also not the same time finish with me, hard to meet them,only lunch or dinner time than can meet my other frens here..n so n so forth...i cant tell u much here.but 1 thing i can tell u is that everyone wil face the same problems a you including me.
i think now u read my comment, u ok ady. right?hehe...
i know u easy to know more friends..socialise is yr strong [art mah..hehe...

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Unknown said...

dear..thanks..i will stand up..face it..

Unknown said...

dear..thanks..i will stand up..face it..

Unknown said...

dear..thanks..i will stand up..face it..

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