TALKING

talking is actually a big knowledge
you will never know what have you talk
what you experience
you may not have the ability to speak it out correctly
even correct is not enough
you must able to deliver something
that is able to attract others
even that thing is a boring thing
you need to present in another active voice
for example
just now
i as an account student
my friend is a science student
but she able to describe the process
tell us that how funny is science
maybe her sentence is full of jokes
but i can see she is giving us knowledge
something that we dislike
but also interested to listen to her
she tell us in Cantonese
another girl tell us the same thing
but speak seriously
i only understand the first one
with funny content
so this is we have to learn
always be listener
you will get more
just a very simple thing
may bring huge effect
talking is a very deep knowledge
there are millions of speaking style in this world
you want to be the special one
first to listen
then find out your own style
by the way identify your audience
your listener
talk according to situation
talking is not that simple
even
we can call talking as
multi direction voice transfer
means we talk
we learn
not we talk we listen
so
please learn how to talk...

finishing of war...

just now a problem occur
there is an error between us
an error that make me quite mind
quite hard feeling
but now the war is over..
everything like over
but the ash
the bone
the flash
has became history
that stick with the book forever
today she suddenly say her eye can't see
a feeling that
wish to help but can't..
so struggling
socialise is like website
got many tabs can be open
but must set one homepage
that homepage is the most important
but
i will never neglect the tabs
they are also essential
essential to broader my mind
to give me helping hand
i always think
this flower
is it i really seldom water it?
should i put more nutrient?
because it always drop leaf
this is very bad
i can't accept
it is very complicated
temporarily
i just face it calmly
think optimistic
always remember
happy is created by yourself
not others contribute for you...

confusing day

today i really feel very happy
i can go out with peggie..
when she kiss my chick
i feel very nice..
i think this will be a fabulous night...but...
when i reach home...
my mom keep on murmuring me
she even check my thing without my permission...
well..
then she ask where my 200 ringgit go...
that one i early at college already got tell her i take money
she never trust me
i feel very suffer..
she even say she is my mom..
the one who grow me up with money
she can know everything about me
can check me..
no need respect
i am the one who need to respect her only...
what reason is that
she still i 13 or 14 years old
ya definitely i not old
but i also consider at more than 18
got own thinking
she cannot always think that
i am a child
must under control
she at least have to understand what is the freedom for me
dear..i hope you will not mind i sleep early tonight..
i know you sure understand me...

dear..congrats...

jing...you can...finally you get it
i really proud of you...
you study for two weeks form six
you keep on nervous
some more need to work
really worry me
now you are free..
matriculation will be the best way for you..
I'm sure...
Monday is the day you register...
these day we must appreciate the time together...
i sure will miss you...
start study there may be suffer..
you must get use of it..k?
nothing is impossible...
today is really a red letter day for me...
i get four flat for my pspm..
my pei jing also get matrix...
i really too happy...
now i know she also very happy...
well...
really congratulation..
i know you want to take psychology...
i know you can achieve your goal...
good luck..my dear..

BACK FROM HONG KONG..

Finally i come back
this time i go hong kong really learns a lot
i meet with many type of people...
a very nice grandma with modern thinking...
two clever sales...
one group of noisy hawker...haha...
one group of fishmonger...
this is a mix group...
the grandma actually
at the beginning..
i really don't like her..
she bring wrongly the passport and need the whole team to wait for her...
but after she join back,..
i realise she can face problem well...
when back that time..
luggage got problem...she say don't talk so much
we not really know wat happen so don't say too much...
well..this is the correct way to handle problem..
the sales got two guys...
one is singapore towel salesman..
i think he earns a lot
he can speak well..
he got tell me...
enough study or not
not important..
most important come out work must think far...
but not too far..
moderate...
another guy is car sales..
he stop study after form five and staright away work...
he say although now his financial is ok..
he still think lacks something...
education...
but for me
eventhough we come out from university..
we still need to learn from them
because experience is more valueable than wht you learn from book
that's why university wants to extend practical...
i go hong kong, shen zhen guang zhou,zhu hai, and macau...
the richest place well must be hong kong..
eat one bowl of mee also rm20...
somemore at roadside stall...
at shenzhen it is much more cheaper and also more tasty....
haha...but hong kong dim sum really nice...
disneyland is one of the best place...
i like that place...
got chance i must go with pei jing...hehe...
when back that time...
i met with the youth minister malaysia
he come china to watch the sudiman cup...
well..my dad caht a lot with him...
i didn't aspect a minister can take flight alone..
somemore is air asia...
i think minister should take malaysia airline first class..
well..he really thinks rationally...
i like this trip...it's really nice...

worry..

just now i message my friend
i really scared Peggie will jealous again
actually
i don't know why
every time she don't want reply me
my heartbeat very fast
i got no mood to do things
i can't lose her now
maybe like Chinese idiom
hero can't skip from pretties trick..haha
laugh out loud..
Peggie got ask me
is it she control me too much
i think yes
but i don't it's a bad sign
it can be considered
good
at least i can know
she always care of me
i think i have to love and care her more
well...
i not romantic at all
this is what she know
everybody know
but at least she can accept
i must be more romantic
now she like a rewards for me
from the god
i will appreciate her
dear...
daily 10 pm onwards
I'll remember...

she remind me..

she remind me of many thing
Peggie is good
i think I am the one who not good
i not enough confident let her feel that i like not care of her
i got promise her many things
always tell her the truth
always no secret
don't neglect her to accompany my friends
always take initiative...
i remember de...
I'll trying my best to do it now
i just need time
i sincerely admit i really a newbie
in love
in coupling
but i really will adapt to it
last time
i am innocent to think that
when i couple i still
can like others
always with friends
as well as with my girlfriend
now i know it's impossible..
it doesn't mean that Peggie
control me too tight
until i can't breathe
but i know she got a limit
she still will give me freedom
just all these can't
simply say give then give
i have to take responsible
being a man
boyfriend to her
and always remember
i not single
any thinking should involve her...

thinking......

yesterday night i think we talk a lot
i keep on thinking how this Saturday
how to go out if she really can't
i say never mind
she say she will mind
although i really eager to go with her
but if need to force
it's not a good thing
moreover
i still got no idea
how
how to plan that day
i just keep on thinking all that
old style method
ha ha
stupid me
today i go up the tuition centre
and meet a guy
he keep on saying his skill come from work
i appreciate de
is his one sentence
one guy learn swimming from book
one guy learn from book and also do real practise
who will be better?
haha
i definitely understand what he want to mean
study accountancy why can't be management?
there are a lot of CEO even a good manger
is accountant last time
study accounting may be need longer time
but i think it's worth
i just need to make clearly about one point
not only business student can be good management
accountant not only need to calculate
but also need to communicate socialise
having the same routine with business gang
this is my opinion...
well
i know j must support me..

very fast..

me and j
well
it is too fast
i have to admit that i always lacks of one thing
CONFIDENT..
this time looks like a good start but who knows
this will be a night mare
once i ake up one day
suddenly all will disappear..
he mom didn't give her pocket money
life for her is like very suffer
sincerely i can't understand why a mother don't want to give
her daughter pocket money
already 18 somemore
i feel her sadness
i think she is worrying about money problem
just now accidentally touch with money this sensitive issue
i know she very mind i say like that
well
i just promise
i wouldn't do it again..
actually i also jobless
i still a student
i also use my parents money
i can't imagine one day i without money
j now i think she can't even solve meal problem...
in long term...
no wonder she want to work...
i listen she only eat bread
i got a hard feeling
i am failed
why i can't even buy food for her?
i really scared
that time i was having dinner with my parents
i can't go out
but while i am enjoying my dinner..
she just eating bread..
am i bad?
i think so....
i hope she will not read this because
i don't want her to know my personality
which is so bad..
i am very stingy
i never buy things
i never spend my own money
seldom
that's why i seldom go shopping..
go shopping complex is just window mode
i feel myself very lucky
can know her
i finally understand different family got their own problem
that day her mom forget buy food for her
then she like dislike her mother like that
her mother somemore go say something bad with her grandma
all these have create a war among them
maybe i really too stupid
i don't understand why she can quarrel until like that
as i think is small matter..
but for her is a big matter
i need time to understand her
hope so my effort will bring back profit even revenue
people say u put seed sure can get flower
but without the essential watering process..
the flower takes a long time to grow...
i want to add more water..
just for j..

why?

why mo mom is different with others?
i can't deny that everyone got their own characteristics
but should at least have to change their bad characteristics?
we have planned to have a trip to hong kong
within this month...
last week we book the tour
but then just after that
the H1N1 flu exist
this is not my fault
is it?
definitely after matrix
i just want to have a trip outside
why she keep on scolding me to choose time like that to go travel?
keep asking me why not choose end year?
don't she know that that time I'll having my university lesson
she keep on asking me end year is there any holiday
but she should understand now i not yet get any offer
every university have their own system
Holiday is different
where can i find an answer for her?
she even say i don't border her
don't tell her the timetable
until now she book a flu trip
waste her money and time
it's all my fault
i really fade up with all these
this is who she is
i really don't understand
what is he thinking about
every time
every morning
when we go out for breakfast
we will ask her where to go
but she will just keep quiet
and then when dad want to bring us to that place to have breakfast
she will say why come to such place
is it women is like that
my dad is considered tolerate to her
sorry for saying that
i am not filial
because i do scold her behavior
because i don't think so she is doing the right thing.
mom, i hope one day later
you can change.