mix feeling

recently really like everything also feel not good
not my cup of tea
feeling everything is going wrong
i also don't know why I'll think like that
i try to mix less with Neo they all
even accounting friends...
i know we are different
this is a reality that we can't avoid forever
what they join what they talk is totally not my side
i start to lost topic with them
i don't know why i will think so frustrated
i start to hate myself
haiz haiz haiz
in faculty i can't cope with most of the subject
i start to give up
actually i really not time study le
but i also won't give up my interest towards performance
when the situation keep worsening
it's hard for me to survive
haiz haiz haiz
then i realise accounting student
no matter accounting club, their study, their performance also much more better than us
it is a very negative and sad thing for me
i like studying in a low quality course
haiz...why why?
i really don't understand..
then for ptum..
ya..i do remember i promise will practise as hard as possible although I'm a minor character
but this really too minor
i sit more than act
it is boring
i start to feel boring
haiz...
some more now take my whole raya holiday
no more family no more friends
some more no more time for peggy
it's very suffer
who can tell me what to do
haiz
i hope everyone can forgive me
i really very tension now
everything is blur
how to face final?
i don't know....
tanent,your destiny at um
you must face it toughly ah...