lonely=alone=feeling

today alone watch le chipmunk..
really funny
alone is very weird
actually i hate that
i not dare to laugh although it is funny
until the women beside me start to laugh
sometimes i thinking
alone is good?
alone can do everything
without consider a lot?
alone can shout everywhere
without care about others feeling?
alone can go fitting room try a lot of shirts
but didn't buy any at last?
recently getting close with one gang of seniors..
crazy and funny guys..
always go everywhere in kl with motorcyle
that day also go pavilion..
thanks them for fulfill my dream for over one sem..
haha..
that day go to melaka to have christmas celebration with them
this is a less than 24 hours trip...
reach there around seven..
have sate celok..
then we go to portuegese village
many house is being decorated so beautiful..
we buy some snow spray..
spray around
getting very excited..
really my first time..
hahaha..white christmas..
but late night..
we sit at jetty and have chat..
sitting there
listening to the wave and the feeling of christmas.
really peaceful..
really thank for giving a chance to spend time there...
the next day we go to jonker street
have chicken rice and nyonya chendol...nice=)
then go to mahkota parade a while..
back kl le..
afetr that
back kl..
have kfc!!!
third time le...my god...
recently kfc like my second home...

the real failure

do you know what is real failure?
a real failure is people treat you as the top
but instead you are the poorest and nothing
internal failure
dislike such feeling
dislike being the lowest
dislike the feeling of guilty
because seems like it's all my fault
being studying nothing
being enjoying
lastly the only thing
that know is i get a worst result
ya...
now i regret
very regret
when more people asking the same question
and i answering the same answer
the people will show the same face and appearance..
useless already a signboard for me
got one senior saying that
we should never satisfy with any average result
but i already done...
the only thing can do is...
forget and accept
changes and adapt....


life is ranking

without ranking..
you are the one being looked down
without ranking
everything seems wrong
without ranking
that;s no competition
without ranking
that's no suffering....

幸福可以很简单

我的爸妈

幸福真的很内在
不是你说 “你好幸福哦，看起来”
假如幸福是那么简单，我想
我是幸福的
爸妈的恩爱
有时还真让我羡慕
妈妈的坏脾气
只有爸爸能体谅
虽然我那么多年来我并没对妈咪发过很大很大的脾气
可能有的是偶尔的闷气
我真的很希望我的恋情
也是有着双方体谅的存在
有着一个双方该有的空间





手指的牵引





双手的交接




双手是幸福的一部分
一段恋情的幸福开始
无论
那是介于指逢或掌心
暖暖的感觉
就像冬天在暖炉旁的互相加持
幸福
本来就是自己的争取
自己的挖掘
但是时间
却在幸福间
划下了界线
有人幸福
有人愁。。。。。

1220

20 december is my mom birthday..but also
this year
one of my best fren is going to move to taiping
she no longer stay at ss
we study together since kindergarten
until pre university
only we seperate
she live near my house
once i back ss
she is one of the target to fill up my free slot
hahaha
but now...
she no longer here
today having a great day with our gang fren...incude her..
hahahahaha..saying like she is going to ( )
choi~~~
just wanna say good luck to her
hope we still gt chnace come out rock together~~~


sha po wishe teoh^^

歌乐

原来
最近的我真的在空虚期
不懂自己为什么
突然笑得很开心
不能停止
也突然停下来
觉得很不开心
我最近不停的写歌
我不曾想过我的作品会被认同
一切只不过是一时的即兴
算不上什么佳品
来说
家主
想起爸爸的一切。。。。想起第一次爸教我的东西
想起每次晚上他说的道理
另一首歌
海域
是我看着从金沙酒店望出的海景
我的感觉很深
很想用歌曲把它表达出来
一首比较轻松的歌曲
最后一首歌
CARE
这首歌
讲的是对爱情的一种承诺
一种信任
写的时候其实脑里一片空白
百思莫解

H a T e

it should come to an end
i really make it suffer for a long time
why i couldn't make a decision
why i will consider a lot
i care too much
and i feel i really got no idea what i should do
somebody say hate is the best solution
but if possible i also don't want any hate occur to me
please~~
i could be the angel
but it will just appear more misunderstanding
i start feeling friends after partner is difficult
even it's weird
now the situation is
left walk near is sea right walk near is volcano
either one may cause suffer
what is friends?
concern?
passion?
care?
non stop communication?
when u are getting blur~~~
my gosh
it's going to have a decision
if not
like my friend said
a rubber band can be pulled as long as possible
but why not cut it rudely
to prevent it to get longer and longer till break it itself?

worthy 5 hours

spend of five hours
i finally settle the thing
finally understand why she do like that..
finally can get an answer
finally everything is over
first of all..
i really got do wrong
i appologize...
and she also say sorry to me
for what she do wrong
it seems like an ending
but i think it's a good start
at least she can have a new life
for now
maybe she still in sad mood
need time to walk out from it
but at least i've give her an answer
reduce her suffer
what i can speak and do
i already try my best
an under control guy speaking ><

80

the world got many 80
80 shirts
80 dollars
80 years old
80 kg
but today i receive 80 message at the same time
she send back all the message i send to her before
got sweet
got scold
got not syok
maybe like that she will more happy...
but when i read back the message..
i start to think
certain message is very negative
i dun know she save it is for?
i really dun know what am i feeling now?
everytime feel messy
i will write it out
maybe i really treat blog as a place for me to shout all wat i think
childish?
is she childish?
passion?
is she too passion in love?
or selfish?
i slefish?
irresponsible?
i irresponsible in love?
i got no idea...
the phone keep ringing
the message i get i hope can keep for good memory
but when i realize
there are a lot of bad message
i start thinking
all the couple memory
mostly are negative....
well..
when she say she will not couple anymore
enough make me guilty...